Crippling Loneliness
I felt very lonely for the past few days -- weeks, even. I think that's not going outside of your room for days does to you. But here's the thing, I'm usually fine with complete solitude. So the question is, what happened to me? Honestly, I don't know. I feel like days passed like unrecognizable blurs, and I'm floating like a non-existent space, if that makes sense. I realized that this usually means that I'm losing myself, or feeling nelangsa, even though I'm not entirely sure if that's the right word to describe it, but I'm not in the mood to do a research to find the true meaning of a damn word because it would cost me hours of my day (even though I've wasted like 5 hours of my day today instead of studying because I lost almost all of my motivation to study, but yeah.) Yesterday I opened Instagram after a long day of constant procrastinating-stressing-procrastinating cycle, and I feel my eyes burning : I wanted to cry. I feel like every body...